Is there such a thing? I feel like I’m a horrible group kind of mother. I’m never going to be one of those moms that goes to the playground to let my kid play so I can sit and look at my phone or talk to other women. I may go with a friend or 2 with their kids and play all together. I don’t want to go there to bring Savanna a good time and not enjoy it myself with her. I love the joy on her face when she’s swinging, I always want to be there to see that. To be in that moment.
As I sat on the regular swings with Savanna on my lap – because some mom thought it was ok for her 3 or 4 year old to swing in the baby swing – I looked around at what was going on. It is like a high school environment. You can tell which moms come all the time together and stick together. You can see the loners, who don’t want anything to do with anyone. And there are a few very involved parents who just want to enjoy the time with their kids.
Maybe I’m being very judgemental but when a little girl runs up and asks me to help her swing because her mommy will say no, or 2 boys are extremely excited by feeding the goats but the mom is too busy on her phone to notice, I get annoyed. I take my phone out but only to take an obnoxious amount of pictures of my beautiful girl. It seems so disconnected. Don’t get me wrong, I have moments where I just need to take a step back and breathe. I get overwhelmed and stressed, but I don’t want to look back 5 years from now when she can do all of those playground things herself and regret not being there for her. (But of course 5 years from now I will still be there embarrassing her in front of her friends.) 🙂
My most embarrassing moment I have had on a whole took place today. As I’m holding my little love bug, I went to sit on the swing with her in my arms and I fell flat on my butt. I looked to see if anyone saw me, as I wanted to run off, and the mom next to me was either in a world of her own while pushing her child, or was laughing her butt off behind her sun glasses. I couldn’t tell, because she said nothing. Good thing about the situation was Savanna didn’t know I didn’t mean to do that, so she enjoyed every second. Haha.
So, what is the right playground etiquette? Am I supposed to introduce myself to other moms? Was I supposed to help the little girl swing? Is it ok to walk away from your baby on the baby swing and leave her alone with strangers around? (Not me obviously) Is it ok that I wanted to say good job, you rock! to the woman with an infant in the baby carrier and another baby on the hip? Is it ok that I wanted to make a smartass comment to the moms on their phones? Is it ok that my baby wants to smile and wave at everyone that passes her by and I want to trip the people that look and don’t respond?
Gosh, I’m a bad playground mom. Apparently I don’t play well with others. But, that’s ok, because the most important person had a blast today, and that’s the only thing that matters to me. Maybe one day I’ll be more friendly, but that’ll only be because of my social butterfly making me!