Surgery week.

This week is going to be a big one. It will change my life forever. This whole process has been life changing but this week, it will completely change the way I look and feel. I am having surgery on Wednesday. A double mastectomy. I still can not wrap my head around it, I just can’t. This whole process has been extremely overwhelming, to say the least. The surgery will be about 2 hours from home, so Justin, Savanna and mom will stay in a hotel for a couple days while I am there. I would lie if I said I’m not nervous. I’m a nervous wreck. The reason I’m traveling this far for surgery is for the surgeon. I met 3 different surgeons and he made me feel the most comfortable. While being closer to home would have made things so much easier, I needed to feel good about who was preforming the surgery. He spent a lot of time with Justin and I, and I trust him. It does make a difference in my emotional well being knowing that I trust the doctor. I’m hoping and praying for a quick recovery and to be home soon after. I know any remnants of cancer that may be in there, will be removed and that makes me feel great. It stinks that I have to lose a body part or two, but I will work through it. I will follow surgery with radiation soon after. If you would have asked me 2 years ago what I would do if I had a breast cancer diagnosis, I would have probably said, just chop them off! It’s so easy to say and it makes sense. But I’m here now, and its just not that easy. It’s so extremely emotional. I think I have cried more this past week than I have possibly this whole time, excluding diagnosis week. I’m sure this emotional roller coaster will continue for some time. But with the help of my amazing family and […]

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Post Chemo…I love saying that! :)

It’s been a few weeks since I had my last chemo. I’m not sure I’ll ever get sick of saying post chemo, I’m done with chemo, oh, I finished chemo a few weeks ago. Feels so good. I’ve been trying to make decisions about surgery and just slowly getting better. I have finally chose my surgeon(that was quite the process and headache) and will meet a plastic surgeon soon to make some more decisions. I have a lot to think about and finalize. Hopefully surgery will be the week after next…I’m still waiting for a final date. I still have to get hormone therapy at the cancer center every 3 weeks until October. There are no side effects to this drug, so it’s ok. And I love the nurses there, so it’s just a time to say hi and thank you. I can say it is a little easier knowing there is no cancer in my body! I’m doing what I can to control that and keep it away. Everything was going smoothly until this week…first Savanna woke up with a fever and awfully stuffy. I took her the doctor and it is really nothing, just some steroids and fever reducing meds. She is slowly coming around. Tricia has been out of commission in the hospital. They are still figuring out all the details of what’s wrong. Fingers crossed they have it and she comes home tomorrow. Then I caught something and was miserable. I’m so thankful for my mom and mother in law. I didn’t even get this sick on chemo. I guess it’s a different kind of sick though. I could barely stand, let alone take care of an almost 2 year old all day. I’m so grateful that my amazing neighbor happened to be in Walgreens at the same time as me and helped me with Savvy and took care of me. Best neighbor ever award. My mother in law took care of Sav so I could rest, thank you so much! I’m starting to […]

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What a day…

Today has been one of the most emotionally exhausting days in a very long time. I’ve been a wreck because I knew my pet scan was today. Sleep didn’t come easy last night, or for the past few days for that matter.  My mind is just running everywhere. Did the chemo work? Has it spread? What’s this new pain…what’s that…could it be? Oh crap, that’s a new bump, what’s that? Everything is something at this point. It’s overwhelming and can drive a person crazy. I’m so lucky I have amazing people around me. People that know how to talk me off the ledge. My husband is amazing. He seriously deserves an award. He has been so great through this. Justin, thank you, for everything. I don’t know what I would without you. You and Savanna are my rocks. I couldn’t do this without you. Special shout out to Tricia and my mom for holding down the fort and for hanging with Savanna.  You guys are amazing. And to Jennifer-my person, my carrot, there are no words. Thank you. So I got to my treatment center and got all checked in and ready for my scan. After a few meltdowns, I made it through the scan. Thank you to Thelma for being there for me. I’m telling you, Thelma is so amazing. Best nurse navigator out there. She knows what I need and when it. Especially when it’s a hug, she’s there. Justin and I had a mini date of lunch and cupcakes and headed home for the dreaded wait. They say anywhere from 24-48 hours. Luckily, I have an amazing doctor who called me less than 6 hours after my scan. As soon as the phone rang, I got butterflies. Doctor seemed pretty upbeat when I answered so i was hoping that meant good things. I did ask if she had good news, she said yes. She went over the whole scan with me, down to the medical details that I don’t understand. The radiologist […]

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