Radiation Celebration

Another chapter done in this crazy roller coaster called Inflammatory Breast Cancer. Chemo, surgery and now radiation DONE! Yey! I have some hormone therapy left for a few months and then years of a pill but, the big hard stuff is out of the way! Now just to let my body heal. It’s been through a lot. I’ve learned a lot about food and the body over the last year or so. I learned that I wasn’t being kind to my body before, and I plan to change that. I have been making changes and I hope to make more. It’s a constant battle everyday, but one I intend to take seriously and continue for my entire life. I want to live a long, healthy life. I will do everything in my power to do so! I do believe cancer was a wake up call for me, in a lot of different ways. So, peace out cancer, I never want to see you again, but thanks for how you changed me. Being out of full treatment can be challenging emotionally, but I have great people to help me. I have good moments and crazy moments. Going through the rough times of cancer is super hard but no one can prepare you for after cancer. It is beautiful, amazing, eye-opening and incredible. It is also terrifying, confusing and hard. As jumbled as it is, I’m so very grateful to be alive and able to feel and figure out all of these emotions! The day I finished my radiation, I had some people over to celebrate! It was a long month or so and it deserved a mini-party. My hubby was away training for a new job so he couldn’t make it, but he did make an appearance on FaceTime. 🙂 Thank you all that came to celebrate. I love you all. Support of family and friends helped get me through this and I’ll never be able to thank you all enough! I didn’t get pictures with […]

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Gratitude and curse words.

Anyone who told me radiation was a piece of cake, I have no good words for you. This is not like a bad sunburn. I am not in and out. And dammit, it is not flying by. I hurt. I can’t move my arm correctly. I have to keep my arm up all day so it can breathe and get air. I have a week or so left but it feels like forever. I can’t imagine this getting much worse (although I do know, it could always be worse), I pray it doesn’t. But, you know what? I’m alive. So none of that complaining really matters. Sometimes it is good to get out but in the grand scheme of things, it is helping me so I can watch my baby grow up. It’s helping so I can grow old with my amazing husband. It is helping me, so when I have moments of anger or self-pity, I quickly turn my thoughts around and turn to gratitude. I will continue to say I hate cancer, but I love what it has done to me. I feel like such a better person. I know I am. I love life so much more now. I enjoy the little moments with my girl. I soak in all her craziness and love every second, even rough ones. I see my husband is such a new light. He is so amazing. I won the jackpot with my little family. He has taken such good care of me and Savanna though this journey. I know it has to be hard for him but he has been so great. From taking me to every chemo to just doing the dishes because I’m too tired to do them. Thank you my darling husband. I love you more than words can say. Life has been full of changes this year, and they continue to happen. Good changes, new changes, but all to better us and our lives. I’m excited to see what the future holds […]

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