This week is going to be a big one. It will change my life forever. This whole process has been life changing but this week, it will completely change the way I look and feel.
I am having surgery on Wednesday. A double mastectomy.
I still can not wrap my head around it, I just can’t. This whole process has been extremely overwhelming, to say the least.
The surgery will be about 2 hours from home, so Justin, Savanna and mom will stay in a hotel for a couple days while I am there. I would lie if I said I’m not nervous. I’m a nervous wreck. The reason I’m traveling this far for surgery is for the surgeon. I met 3 different surgeons and he made me feel the most comfortable. While being closer to home would have made things so much easier, I needed to feel good about who was preforming the surgery. He spent a lot of time with Justin and I, and I trust him. It does make a difference in my emotional well being knowing that I trust the doctor. I’m hoping and praying for a quick recovery and to be home soon after.
I know any remnants of cancer that may be in there, will be removed and that makes me feel great. It stinks that I have to lose a body part or two, but I will work through it. I will follow surgery with radiation soon after.
If you would have asked me 2 years ago what I would do if I had a breast cancer diagnosis, I would have probably said, just chop them off! It’s so easy to say and it makes sense. But I’m here now, and its just not that easy.
It’s so extremely emotional. I think I have cried more this past week than I have possibly this whole time, excluding diagnosis week. I’m sure this emotional roller coaster will continue for some time. But with the help of my amazing family and some awesome friends, I will get through this. And I will get through this cancer free! I have changed my lifestyle so much, I know cancer will never come back. Cancer has forged its way into my life, but I am quickly showing it the door!
Thank you for all of your positive thoughts and prayers…keep them coming! I appreciate it more than I can say.